Unless the LORD watches over the city, the watchman stays awake in vain. - Psalm 127:1b

The week leading up to Steve's departure became very difficult for me. All of a sudden, I noticed all the "sounds" and "creeks" the house makes as you settle in. Found my eyes open quite frequently throughout the night "hearing things". Even suggested purchasing a security system more than a few times. I also mentioned to a good friend who lives local to pass by daily and check on us (he's in Law Enforcement). Was added to the "crime watch page of Bellflower" and some other unmentioned ideas to be more aware.

My thoughts and prayers went from excitement and praise to live close by family and friends to the "what ifs" and concerns of will we be okay while dad is gone?

As Steve prayed over our family and our upcoming time apart, the Lord reminded me of the answer to all of my concerns and questions.

Unless the LORD watches over the city, the watchman stays awake in vain. - Psalm 127:1b

His word stopped the deep down gut feelings of fear and insecurity I continued to feed myself. He stilled the anxiousness growing in my stomach and put it all to rest...

Unless I trust the Lord God in heaven to build and watch over this home, there isn't enough "reinforcement" anywhere! And any sleepless nights and watchmen apart from Him, waste their effort and labor in vain! Right there! That's what I needed to hear! "Jamie! I am in control! I am the Blessed and only Sovereign! (1 Tim 6:15) I got you! I got your family and your home! Trust me because I am the only one who can truly keep you."

By His loving grace he stopped all the fear and worry and stilled my thoughts and concerns. He reestablished trust, hope and confidence in Him and Him alone! It no longer was other people coming over to spend the night with us, or installing motion sensors or locks on the gate or anything else! The Blessed and only Sovereign was keeping watch over us both day and night! And even daddy waaaaay away in Kigali, Rawanda is safe. That's far more effective and trustworthy! And with that, we're good! :)

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